Imageshack hates me.

Now I've been trying to update my blog with new photos for the past 2 days.... but everytime I try to upload my pics onto Imageshack... I am made to wait 278528465 hours for it to process... and finally it greets me with either a "Server Error" or "Server Timeout" message.... or even more frustratingly, the page refreshes on it's own but instead of going to my gallery it goes back to the upload page. =.= And the photos are missing.

PFFFT.

So anyhoo. I'm not dead. Just busy. And whoooo... more than ever. Somewhat mindfucked, but generally a big O-K. Anyways. Updates on my often delusional life....

Oh I got a car now. Tsk. No excuse to not learn how to drive now..... =.=

Things have been great work-wise, and believe it or not I'm finally getting down to the grind of dieting. No, not diet-yourself-Vicky-Beckham-skinny kinda diet, for chrissakes. I am on a proper, bodybuilder's cutting diet. And yes - it is SO much tougher in practical than in theory. Always been so easy to read about it and tell people about it, eh? But when it comes to the real effing deal - I'm shit scared. God I wish I could describe how unsure I am about certain things I never really gave thought to in the past, e.g eating the right foods, but the wrong portions of it. What's too much, what's too little and so on. (Poor Terry. Been jabbing him every 5 seconds or so with stupid questions and paranoid thoughts...)

Oh but why now? Why so suddenly out of nowhere?
Well.... I don't wanna talk about that yet I guess cos details are still pretty vague... :P But I am anticipating something pretty big alright and am keeping fingers crossed HARD!!!!!!

But yea. This means alot to me and if I really want to compete one day, heck, it's HIGH TIME to start learning, get a feel of it, and get used to it. I am so, so motivated and pumped up by it right now and I'm determined to go through with it for the next one month. But yea going so low-carb is taking it's toll... I'm trying to get used to the dizziness and blurness that comes with it. Especially challenging now that I'm bumping up my training, and making changes to my routine.

I am also making a commitment now to journal, and keep a training log. It can be scrutinised, commented on, and critiqued on ProBuffedBodies. Wake up call, Kimmie. It's time to get right with it. Now or never.

GOD. I'm so, so looking forward to Sunday's buka puasa gathering... It's been so long since I've eaten anything with salt in it at all. That will be the last big cheat meal before I throw all in.

Okay I gots to go now. Sorry if post sounds incoherent and stupid. I'm exhausted. Whew.