It's wonderful, ain't it, how one's happily jovial mood can be changed and brought crashing down in just less than a miserable five minutes....

People always claim children say they hate their parents or parent but it's all foolishness and out of anger cos they don't mean it in the end... But for me that is how it has been for years. I'm sick of facades. Sick of pretending. Sick of putting on a civil, cheerful tone every day.

And even though I have left gender crisis far, far behind me 4-5 years ago.....
When I'm all alone and my mind is permitted to wander...
A part of me still thinks life would have been at least a little brighter, and people would treat me better too, if I were a man.